bookbashuk Chapter 18
Chapter 18
Eat on time in the evening.
The sun is still shining in the west, and it will soon set in this season, representing a day that is about to pass.
A family of three, plus a girl who seems to belong to the family, sits around the dinner table and enjoys themselves.
"Actually, you don't need to buy moon cakes, we don't dare to eat too much at this age, otherwise we won't be able to stop for a few days.
Qin Ruyun thought of eating two mooncakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival last year, which made her tongue and lips foam, and now she was scared.
Xu Xianle peeled a piece of crab leg meat and put it in his mother's dipping saucer, and said with a happy smile: "The physique is different, you see that my father is not afraid of getting angry, he couldn't eat every meal without a little chili pepper back then, and now it must be a trivial matter."
"Don't bring me with you to brag. The
old father glanced at him, thinking that he was sure that he would not be afraid of the fire, but he did not think so about the hemorrhoids in his buttocks.
He is now middle-aged with hemorrhoids and does not dare to mess around.
Xu Mengxian couldn't help but laugh softly when she heard the conversation between father and son, but she still didn't dare to say more.
She also wanted to chat with everyone, but now she was just an external guest, and the whole atmosphere revolved around Xu Xian.
Obviously, she can be as good as Xu Xian, casual and uninhibited, but reason still stops the impulse.
Of course, Xu Mengxian doesn't say anything does not mean that she will become a transparent person, Qin Ruyun noticed that she didn't say a word.
Then he smiled at her and said: "Mengxian, eat more crab meat, your body looks too thin, you have to supplement more nutrients, and you also bought these seafood, which is a bit too much, Auntie will come to peel a big crab for you." "
As soon as she opened her mouth, she was affectionately addressed, Qin Ruyun was very old-fashioned.
As he spoke, he picked up the steamed crab on the plate, although it was a little hot, Qin Ruyun still peeled off the crab shell in a steady and orderly manner.
Xu Mengxian wanted to stop Qin Ruyun from doing this, but her inexplicable selfishness made her not say anything.
She's just a guest, obviously irrelevant, and she doesn't need her mother in memory to do this for her.
This feeling is familiar, Xu Xian was often treated like this when he was a child, but that was Xu Xian's memory.
Can you really get it yourself?
She endured the trembling in her heart and said
, "Thank you, Mom-" Sensing that she had made a mistake, she reacted and immediately changed her words: "Thank you, Auntie, you are so polite." "
Mom?"
Qin Ruyun raised her head in a daze, she seemed to have heard this girl call herself something just now? Is it calling her mother?
Xu Xian suddenly said at this time: "Such a big crab is not given to me, my family status is a bit low." The
mother, who had already peeled the crab, gave him a blank look: "Don't interject, what does this have to do with family status." As he
spoke, he put the tender and large pieces of crab meat into Xu Mengxian's dipping saucer: "Don't rest assured of Xiao Xian's words, he just doesn't have the eyesight to speak, and he used to condone too much." "
What a girl, she is making a good impression of her son, but Xu Xian seems to be really angry.
"It's okay, that's how he has a personality.
Xu Mengxian breathed a sigh of relief, just now she called Qin Ruyun as her mother by mistake, and almost revealed a flaw that was wrong.
Fortunately, Xu Xian diverted her attention, otherwise if Qin Ruyun asked, she might not be able to help but tell the truth.
Emotions do affect people's behavior.
I know the truth that I can't tell, but I still want to talk out loud because of the pain, maybe this is me.
Xu Xian once said that the truth can be told, but not now, but at the moment when everyone is familiar with each other in the future.
When everyone treats her as a friend and an important person, everything can be slowly revealed.
seems to hear a different meaning from Xu Mengxian's words, or maybe this is a misunderstanding of the mother.
Qin Ruyun suddenly laughed mysteriously: "It seems that Mengxian and Xiao Xian have been together for a long time, so do you like boys with personality like him?" Xu Xian
is already twenty-two years old, and when he arrives for the New Year, he will be twenty-three years old, and he will hook up with those boys all day long, and he thinks that there is a problem with his orientation.
You can't have a female friend to talk to.
can bring Xu Mengxian here as a guest, Qin Ruyun doesn't think that this is just an ordinary holiday dinner.
Xu Mengxian was shocked by this sudden question, but she didn't show any shyness.
Objectively speaking, Xu Xian is the one who created her.
And the main point of view is another genuine self.
Xu Mengxian can't fall in love now, and she doesn't have this mind, and she even can't let herself fall in love with a man, she just wants to quickly accept the fact that she is a girl.
She could only answer noncommittally: "Actually, I like it a lot, but I don't have any other ideas for the time being, Auntie, you know, I came here for work." "
True and false, false and true.
Qin Ruyun could hear her euphemism, and nodded with some disappointment: "In this way, it's not bad to be positive, after all, girls in this era like to be self-reliant."
Xu Xian listened to these conversations between Xu Mengxian and his mother, and for some reason he suddenly had no appetite.
However, he still advised: "Mom, let's not discuss these things too much, it's the first time people come to our house for dinner, you will scare Xu Mengxian like this."
Qin Ruyun found out that her son really didn't know how to come, and he didn't know how to cooperate with himself, so he didn't bother to match again: "Also, you young people's affairs, just follow your own heart."
Xu Mengxian felt that the mother was a little angry, so she said intentionally or unintentionally: "I like it here, there is a home atmosphere, so that I can feel warm even if I don't go home..."
I didn't dare to say goodbye to this home in my memory alone, the gradually aging faces of my 'parents', and everything bit by bit, I was very afraid of losing, and I couldn't forget.
Even if all this is only in memory, even if it is not theirs, it doesn't matter.
Not for leisure, but for yourself.
Qin Ruyun suddenly smiled again: "Since you like it here, then you can come with Xu Xian when you have time in the future." Hearing
what the other party said, Xu Mengxian breathed a sigh of relief.
She almost lost something important in her heart just now, she didn't know what it was, but she got it back in time.
OK.
"Well, I'll come often, Auntie.
Xu Mengxian showed a long-lost but sincere smile.
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at half past eight in the evening.
Now there are not many people who admire the moon during the Mid-Autumn Festival, almost just having dinner and going through the motions, and then going home to do their own things.
Xu Xian is no exception, you can enjoy the moon every day, and the moon is sixteen round on the fifteenth, between the early morning of the sixteenth and seventeenth of the lunar calendar, you can only see it tomorrow night.
The two of them who had dinner, Xu Xian rode a small tram to Xu Mengxian in the direction of his home, and he was leisurely along the way.
Xu Mengxian, who was sitting in the small saddle behind her, stared at the busy cars around her, and the streets were full of people shuttling back and forth, the world has always been wonderful, and it will not vary from person to person.
After she lost her mind for a moment, she suddenly said: "Xu Xian, I want to go under the Pearl River Bridge, is it okay?"
appeared in the short twelve days of this world, and I don't know when she started, she could already officially call the other party by name, instead of calling the other party Mr. Xu Xian.
Because Xu Xian is not her name.
Xu Xian twisted the speed change handle of the tram to slow down a little, and the speed also slowed down, and he turned his head sideways: "Okay." "
The Pearl River is a famous river, one of the economic and commercial hubs in the south, whether it is tourism or import and export goods need to pass through here, and locals also like to walk here.
Born and raised in the Pearl River, whether it is sad or happy, this river always seems to be able to share people's emotions, and it has been like this for thousands of years, burying many unknown secrets.
The small tram went straight all the way on the auxiliary road, and he didn't need to navigate Xu Xian to remember the roads of the city, so he took Xu Mengxian to the side of the Pearl River Bridge.
You need to take the stairs to get down the bridge, and after Xu Xian locked the car, he said, "I know you have a lot on your mind tonight."
Xu Mengxian didn't deny it, she walked in front of Xu Xian and went under the bridge: "It's a lot, let's go down." The
other party was silent for a while, and then followed her down.
During traditional festivals, the Pearl River Bridge is always lit up with LED lanterns to celebrate the festival. For example, now: tonight the moon is bright, and I don't know whose house the autumn thoughts will fall on.
There is no autumn thought, only autumn sorrow.
The surface of the river is sparkling, and the river water flows in a circular manner.
Occasionally, people pass by, there are lively children frolicking, there are also couples flirting and scolding, and there are elderly people walking slowly.
"Do you think this world is real?" asked
Xu Mengxian as she turned around with her hands behind her back.
Xu Xian stopped and replied without thinking too much: "We can't explore the truth and falsehood, this question will never have an answer, if you really want to say it, it will be true." "
People only believe that beauty is real, and Xu Xian feels that Xu Mengxian's appearance can bring beauty, so it is real.
Xu Mengxian shook her head: "I don't think it's real." "
The person who suffers will feel that the world is not real, and she will not dare to face it because she is afraid to avoid it, so she does not believe that it is real.
Of course, Xu Xian knew that she would think so, and he smiled lightly: "I will find a way to make you happy, and then you will feel that this world is real and colorful."
She looked at her curiously, "You want to help me get out of this pain?" The
other party scratched his eyebrows with his index finger, as if thinking: "People's empathy ability is very strong, difficulties can only be solved together will be faster, and you can solve it yourself by time and self-brainwashing, which will only numb yourself."
"And I can listen to you by the side, and I can share your feelings with you, and—"
"Do you know why you show up? Do you think that night was just an occasional fantasy of mine?
Xu Xian said a lot of words word by word, from exposition to rhetorical questions, so that people could not hear the inner emotions of his words.
Xu Mengxian was stunned, and then pursed her lips and fell into memory.
Recalls what kind of emotions, thoughts and fantasies Xu Xian fell asleep with that night, and then she appeared.
All the memories of Xu Xian only stayed on the night of September 8, and when she woke up, she was no longer 'Xu Xian'.
It is the loneliness of moaning without illness, the unwillingness of sullen youth, and the expectation of the future can only be limited to fantasy.
Xu Mengxian replied truthfully according to her memory.
Xu Xian blushed with embarrassment when he heard this.
How could this Nizi talk like that.
But it's all true.
So he cheekily smiled: "That's it, you're just a fantasy of me, a sullen and naïve boy, but I was really praying that night."
"Pray that you will come down from heaven, that another me will appear in my life, that this world will bring some light.
Xu Mengxian was amused by his half-truths: "Do you think I can be your light? If I am an ugly and fat girl, even if I have your memories and thoughts, you will not think that I can become the white moonlight in your impression."
Xu Xian was very honest: "Of course not."
Xu Mengxian didn't expect him to admit it, but she still said: "So only beautiful women can be your light."
He nodded in agreement with this sentence: "Yes, beauty is only one of the reasons, but there is another reason-
" The other party's mood didn't seem to be as heavy as just now, and the curiosity raised by his eyebrows asked, "What's it?"
Xu Xian smiled: "You know everything about me."
Xu Mengxian was dumbfounded.
She actually knew the answer, because Xu Xian needed the companionship of this kind of existence, so she came.