Girl Band, Gravity Capture

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"Soyo, you can speak now."

Chapter Sixty-Four: Love That Cannot Be Lost

As Yuan Xudou gently combed the girl's brown hair, which was as smooth and comfortable to the touch as the finest silk, she held his hand and began to reminisce.

Without deliberately concealing anything or defending her actions, despite being incredibly nervous, Nagasaki Motoyo was unwilling to treat him with even the slightest bit of perfunctory attitude at this time. She slowly revealed her true feelings.

“Because, ever since the day CryCHIC ended, even I could feel it… Heo Doo-kun, you’ve always been very sad. Just like when we first met, when we went to the music store and saw that bass that your father used to use… that kind of sadness.”

As she spoke, Nagasaki Motoyo, who had been lifting up and holding the boy's right hand, slowly lowered her hands and gently placed them on her lower abdomen.

As her words spread throughout the room, the atmosphere in the living room, along with the girl's voice, transformed into a slightly melancholic and gentle ambiance.

No matter how strong a person may appear on the surface, it is impossible for them to remain completely unaffected when faced with setbacks.

Because she was like that too, used to hiding her negative emotions with normalcy and composure, this feeling was all the more profound.

"Although you quickly found Xiangzi and even let her live in your house... to be honest, I was a little bit... just a little bit jealous."

“After all, I’ve been living here for months and haven’t been able to find a place to stay, but she can just come and…” She said the last sentence very softly, almost as a mumbled murmur.

“However, I can understand… After all, Xiangzi had nowhere to go, so Xu Doujun let her stay at his house. Special circumstances should be treated specially.” Nagasaki Sue quickly added to his defense, indicating that she wasn’t getting hung up on the matter.

This is certainly the main reason, but there is another reason that both of them are aware of, but they have tacitly refrained from mentioning it.

—Due to Toyokawa Shoko's overly strong sense of self-esteem and relatively pure mindset, when she stayed at Genjiro Tomo's house, there was at least no chance that the boy would wake up to find an extra person in his bed.

“If one day I also reach that point where I have nowhere to go and can only rely on others… Xu Dou-kun will definitely take me in, right?” She tilted her head slightly, half of her flaxen hair falling to the ground, flowing across the beautiful wooden floor of Yueyi 6 ① Medical Device 2 Ba Temple B. Nagasaki Sosei gazed at Gen Xu Dou above her with slightly moist light blue eyes.

"Ah."

He nodded without much hesitation.

If it really comes to that, even if someone climbs into your bed in the middle of the night... there's nothing you can do about it.

Whether it's Toyokawa Shoko, Nagasaki Motoyo, or the other girls in the band, he would never hesitate to lend a helping hand in such critical moments. However, their situations were usually not as extreme as Shoko's, so a more moderate approach was sufficient.

“…Yes, because that’s just the kind of person Xu Dou-jun is.” A gentle smile, a mixture of helplessness and affection for his personality, bloomed on Nagasaki Motoyo’s face as she murmured softly, “He thinks about other people’s affairs, valuing them more than his own feelings…”

—In this respect, she is just as foolish as him.

"...I don't think that's true." Yuan Xudou blinked uncertainly after she said that.

He felt he wasn't the kind of person who was easy to talk to, especially at school...

“No, that’s definitely it. Xu Doujun, you’re just too easy to give in to others.” She released one hand, then raised it upwards, gently touching the boy’s cheek, slowly stroking his chin with her fingertips. “If it weren’t for that, why did you promise Xiangzi you’d form a band, promise not to give up on my capricious demands, and why didn’t you have the heart to decisively reject Deng and Lixi…”

"You can be cold to strangers, but you can't hurt the people you care about, right?"

Nagasaki Motoyo deliberately used the word "they," and as she uttered that syllable, the fingertips stroking the boy's cheek tightened slightly.

Even if it means having to think about those things over and over again...

Nagasaki Motoyo, resting her head on Genjiro's lap, gently reached out and touched his handsome face, while he gently stroked her forehead and head covered with brown hair. Their other hands, without prior arrangement, clasped together and rested on the girl's flat, soft stomach.

"So... I also did something a bit impulsive." Her chest rose and fell slowly, then she closed her eyes.

"...I don't want that band to be formed."

"Even if it means trampling on Akari-chan's wishes, even if it hurts Riki-chan's wishes, even if there are other people who want those things to happen... I, I..."

She slowly opened her eyes, a struggle between determination and vulnerability appearing in them, and her breathing became slightly choked.

"Xu Doujun...am I being very selfish?"

She took advantage of his indulgence to deny other people's wishes, and even did things like secretly going to his house to question him, as if she were jealous of someone else...

But my intention was simply to relieve Xu Dou's worries about those things...

...But in reality, she realized that she was only doing it for her own happiness and stability.

Because if he remained trapped in this contradiction, her vision of a peaceful and beautiful family life with him, filled with mutual love, would be disrupted. That's why she went to such lengths to isolate him from all of that...

Just like that pink-haired girl said, she presumptuously thought that this behavior was "for his own good," but in reality, it was her own desires at play...

Sure enough, I am a selfish and dark woman, aren't I?

Thinking this through, Nagasaki Motoyo, having fully explained his thoughts, closed his eyes tightly, clenching his right hand anxiously, awaiting the boy's judgment.

"...Su Shi."

After hearing the girl's words, Yuan Xudou remained silent for a few seconds.

Then, with his brows lowered, he gently applied pressure to their clasped hands.

"Yes, that's selfishness." He admitted it.

To deny the efforts of others for one's own sake is undoubtedly a selfish act.

Upon hearing this, Nagasaki Motoyo's slender eyebrows trembled slightly from her closed eyes. Genji Koto could clearly feel the girl on his lap breathing become rapid with unease, and she gripped his hand so tightly that her fingertips almost dug into his flesh.

He smiled gently as he watched the girl, who immediately became uneasy because of his words.

"But that's alright, Su Shi. It doesn't matter at all."

As he spoke, Genjiro gently stroked Nagasaki Motoyo's head, like an adult comforting a child who had made a mistake.

Having spent so much time with the girl, how could he not know the little shadows deep in Nagasaki Motoyo's heart, not know that she was not as tolerant, generous, selfless and gentle as she appeared on the surface, but a girl with her own desires and flaws?

"Do you remember that night at Yuzawa Cafe?"

Yuan Xudou suddenly brought up the past.

Nagasaki Motoyo's heart skipped a beat. How could she not remember? Back then, filled with an unsettling unease, she secretly took Wakaba Mutsumi with her to follow Shoko and Xu Dou because she was worried about their relationship, only to be discovered later…

That was the first time she couldn't hold back her tears in front of others, long after her parents' divorce, and it was also the moment she truly found her own home, a place she would cherish forever...

But why bring it up now...?

"Because, I said back then that I would not give up the band because of Su Shi."

Looking back now, that statement was practically a blatant declaration that he would be juggling multiple relationships in the future. But at the time, Yuan Xudou hadn't thought that way; he simply didn't want to let go of either side.

"--so,"

First came doubt, then confusion, and finally a vague understanding.

As if he understood what he wanted to say, Nagasaki Motoyo suddenly opened her eyes, staring blankly and intently at Minamoto no Kōtō's gentle face.

"Xu Doujun..." she breathed carefully, her fair throat trembling slightly.

“The reverse is also true,” he said, gently stroking the girl’s head as he met her increasingly hazy and passionate gaze, repeating the promise.

"I will never give up on Su Shi because of the band."

"That way, there's no need to worry about such things or feel uncomfortable about what you've done, right?"

His fingertips traced his eyebrows, then his forehead, the crown of his head, and the back of his head...

"Su Shi would do such selfish things for me... Actually, I'm quite happy about it." Yuan Xudou exhaled, the warmth spreading through the air.

To do selfish things for others... that actually means to regard that person as just as important as yourself, or even more important.

How could he possibly blame someone who so favors and cherishes him?

Nagasaki Motoyo remained stunned for a long time, so long that the boy thought her brain had gone blank because of the promise she had just made. Just as he was about to tap her temple, the girl finally came back to her senses.

"That's right..."

She repeated it in a low voice.

"Phew—I see..."

It felt like exhaling all the air from my lungs, a deep, refreshing breath that made me feel completely refreshed.

She understood completely.

No one can surpass her status now. Whether it's Xiangzi, Deng, or that girl named Chihaya Aine... at most, they're just on par.

She won't lose him.

She couldn't lose him.

The chains of emotion had bound the two tightly together, and she was unwilling to loosen them, even hoping they would tighten further, so they would never break free. Yuan Xudou accepted her selfish and dark side, and could even make such a weighty promise.

Therefore, worrying and feeling uneasy are just idle thoughts and meaningless.

It was as if something in my heart had been completely removed, and warm, gentle light shone directly in.

In an instant, Nagasaki Motoyo's mindset became both calm and passionate.

"Our current position is a bit strange." She laughed softly and charmingly, as if amused by the situation. "It should be the girl giving the boy a lap pillow, right?"

"Shall we switch sides?" Seeing that her mood was no longer gloomy, Yuan Xudou also became much more casual.

"No."

Nagasaki Motoyo, who had her own ideas, rejected Minamoto no Koto's suggestion and sat up from the boy's lap. Then, with a youthful, willful yet adorable smile, she opened her arms to him.

"...Even if it's a more unconventional position, is that okay?"

She exhaled a slightly hot breath and looked at him expectantly.

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Chapter Sixty-Five: Finally, a Successful Overnight Stay (Part Two)

Gen Xudou originally thought that Nagasaki Motoyo just wanted to hug him face to face—although the position was a bit awkward while sitting, it wasn't a big deal for the two of them who had hugged in various positions many times.

But when he happily opened his arms and approached the girl, she did not, as usual, reach her hands through his side to hug his back. Instead, she reached up above him and lightly wrapped her arms around the back of his neck, then leaned forward slightly herself.

Just like that, without instinctively putting up any resistance, Yuan Xudou felt a sudden darkness before his eyes, and his face sank into a soft and elastic dark space, like the softest gel, exuding a faint sweet fragrance.

"Huh~huh~"

Nagasaki Motoyo hummed a pleasant little tune, happily holding the boy's head tightly in her arms, her slender fingers carefully running through his hair.

For both of them, this position and the sensation were a first.

Yuan Xudou, who was feeling a bit suffocated, struggled slightly, but felt as if he was sinking deeper and deeper into this soft ocean with the girl's strength. He finally managed to draw some air from the outside world through a crack.

Meanwhile, due to the strange sensation on her chest, Nagasaki Motoyo let out a soft moan, her azure eyes trembling as if melting, filled with an ambiguous mist.

Without being taught, she stroked the back of his head with just the right amount of pressure, then the side of his neck, and finally his earlobe. A blush of happiness spread across her slightly flushed cheeks.

Even though it's so much taller than me, it feels tiny when I hold it in my arms...

And... just a slight movement feels amazing, even better than doing it myself...

Her desire to be cared for and loved was fulfilled, and the urge to shower him with tenderness took over. The tables had turned, and now it was her turn to use some forceful methods to make Xu Dou feel her favoritism.

"Su Shi... this isn't a very easy way to talk to..."

The sounds, muffled by the girl's embrace, were intermittent, and the vibrations that followed made Nagasaki Motoyo's face flush even more, and she couldn't help but start breathing softly.

Of the few girls he knew, only Su Shi and Li Xi had figures that could do this... To be honest, having one's head held in someone's arms was a strange and novel experience for Yuan Xudou.

I may have experienced this with my mother when I was young, but those memories are now blurred. This is truly the first time I've experienced it since I grew up.

"Xu Dou-kun... let me adjust, it's a little itchy..." Even though he was the one who made this bold move first, Nagasaki Motoyo was the one who couldn't hold on any longer. She breathed out hot air and her hands unconsciously started scratching his head haphazardly.

"...If you can't stand it, you don't have to force yourself..." He looked helpless in his half-open eyes due to the feeling of being enveloped, trying his best to remain still so as not to further arouse the other person.

"It's not that I'm forcing myself... This makes me feel very at ease..."

She hugged him even tighter instead.

She is like a caring elder, and also a devoted lover. Now, she can even project her maternal side onto him...

Nagasaki Motoyo no longer wanted to think about whether pouring almost all her needs into just one person would be too heavy a burden.

All she knew was that she didn't reject this relationship or these feelings at all, neither physically nor emotionally.

After a while, Nagasaki Motoyo's tense abdomen gradually relaxed, and she began to get used to... no, she should say she started to enjoy the feeling. That strange, tingling sensation that came from her chest and traveled all over her body slowly melted into her senses, which had become even more sensitive than usual.

So she spoke in a low voice.

"Now, like I was just confiding in you... tell me all of Xu Doujun's thoughts."